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it gets tiring.

as though,

it's going to snap anytime.

Powerful and much needed reminder that the "complaining" needs to stop. Such a contagious habit that is so rampant in our society; subconsciously, it becomes part of our character.

During my time on exchange, my heart was constantly filled with joy. I did not have to intentionally look for reasons to be thankful - I was just so thankful for every little thing like the fresh air I was breathing that my heart was beaming with happiness.

My time at exchange was largely a beautiful memory - but all these wouldn't have been possible with the past year of struggle and tears.

So many times during 2017 I questioned,

So much so that I broke down countless times and was constantly devoid of joy. There were so much negative thoughts that filled my mind, wanting to give up and just forgo exchange altogether. 

Now looking back, without those struggles, I would have never experienced the whole beautiful memory in my favourite country and meet the amazing people over there. The struggles before also made me cherish my time in Aussie so much more - and perhaps that's why it's so hard to let go now. It felt like I was living in a bubble right there, protected from all negativity and harm; now I'm back, it's burst and I'm back to reality.

Lest I forget, I really want to thank God,
for putting me in where He willed for me to be at.
Knowing my character - He placed me in ANU that taught me so much.
Knowing what I love - the mountains and the seas, He placed me there.
Knowing my fears - He put the lovely ones in my life to journey together.

As I went through every single day, I got a better understanding of why He placed me right there at that period.

Indeed, You're the faithful God who moves the mountains, who understands all our needs and fulfills what's best for us.

I'm left with so much to be thankful for - a heart of gratitude that I hope will continue to be cultivated even as I continue my time back home.

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