Your mercies never cease ❤️ //

It has been such a bad and rough week that ended off with my laptop dying on me. Spent countless hours trying to solve it but nothing worked. It was really so exasperating till I broke down along with my laptop lol. The thought of how much I rely on it and the assignments I have to submit in the week to come just overwhelmed me and I couldn't adapt to the alternatives for two full days.

Unproductive days followed with the deadlines drawing near. "Why must it happen during the sem when I decided to do all my readings on my com? And at such a crucial period?" 😥 I questioned again and again. Tried every possible option to revive it but they only left me with mental exhaustion and fatigue.

After all the exasperation and frustration subsided, I thought through calmly. Maybe this is God's way of reminding me that I shouldn't be relying too much on things of the Earth, what more on one single thing. It can fail you anytime, at the most unexpected moment (which it did) when you need it the most.

Indeed, (other than my com) I've really been relying too much on earthly things to get through the daily grind. Painful lesson I must say, but thankful for this much needed reminder.

Thankful that the Lord blessed me with so many precious ones along this tough week too, esp to my siblings, my brother who offered to lend me his laptop w/o hesitation, and my sister who got me study snacks when I was just making a casual remark. Thankful for the impromptu dinner that we had together too❤️

And even with the friends that I met along the week & those who dropped texts of concern💕 really felt so much better after meeting them/talking to them. & also J who really went all out to help me find solutions for the problem with my com till now (0200+) when he just had an exhausting week too.

Thank God for all these blessings💕

Need to constantly remind myself that I'm not alone in this, for He always provides❤️ remember His might, clearly evident through all the wonder of His great works, to trust Him at every step of the way and to always keep that positive attitude and learn the Daebak attitude.. "I can do it!" 💪🏻

Really praying that my com will be fine after the attempt later!!! leaving it in His hands🤗🙌🏻

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So that was what happened on Thursday night, while I was settling work and my computer just decided to make my week more "exciting".

But thank God.

Thank God there were so many willing and loving hearts who came forward to render help. From my family to my friends. Be it words or encouragement or IT help, I really appreciate everything. I really just left the fate of my computer in the hands of the Lord after I posted that entry two days back. Of course, I still felt upset when the progress wasn't going smoothly.. but that feeling of exasperation wasn't as immense as before. On the night that it broke down, I just cried and really broke down along with it.. attempted all the online suggestions till 3am but nothing worked. But anyway, that 'dramatic' episode is over, and now I'm posting this from my computer! :')

One person to really thank is Joel.. I really cannot emphasize how thankful I am towards him throughout this whole mini-episode. Shared with him about this problem a day after it happened because I just wanted to rant to someone to relieve my exasperation towards it. He just started to help me search for more solutions and offered to help me with it. ;_; He even wanted to come on the same night that I told him so that he could fix it for me.. it was like 2am then?? Of course I told him it's alright and we could do it the following day.. which he came over in following morning to take it from me so that he could work on it. I really felt so guilty for the late nights he stayed just to help me with this problem because he had a really exhausting week in camp and also a rather hectic weekend too.. but he was still so willing to help me with this before he heads back again.

You probably won't ever see this.. but really, thank God for you. You've helped me in so many areas of my life which I don't think I can ever do the same for you. Thank you for all the help throughout this time and all the memorable times together. :-)

I really need to learn from him.. to have this heart of love for others!!

May the Lord guide me through this journey and never let my heart turn cold, but always have that burning desire to serve and let His will be done!!! :-)