Got restless while studying and decided to read back my old blog that I used during the secondary school years, and I'm shocked at the "lessons" and quotes I actually blogged about.. some of which are these:

1. I have so many things I want to tell you but I need to keep reminding myself that it’s not the same anymore. That it’s not right for me to want you to be here for me 24/7 like last time. That I cannot keep burdening you with all my problems even though you’re still as nice to listen to what I have to say and comfort me. That basically we are not who we were back then. We are not even we now, it’s just you and I. And I need to learn how to stop thinking of you and let go.

2. Life changes every minute of every day. You lose friends and you gain friends. You realize your friend wasn’t ever really your friend, and that person you used to hate can make a really good friend. You look for love. You find love and you lose love. You realize all along that you’ve been loved. You laugh, you cry. You laugh so hard that you cry. You do this, you do that. You really wish you hadn’t done that. You then learn from that and are glad that you did. You have your ups and you have your downs. You see good movies and you see bad movies. You wonder if your life is just one big movie. You look at others and wish you were them. You then realize who they are and are glad that you’re you. You love life and you hate life. In the end, you just find yourself being happy to be living life, no matter what is thrown at you.

3. Recently, I've been thinking, how awesome it'd be if we were still like the past. But whenever that thought pops up in my mind, another sentence comes to my thought immediately, "Don't ever look back."

4. SOMETIMES WHEN YOU’RE YOUNG YOU THINK NOTHING CAN HURT YOU. IT’S LIKE BEING INVINCIBLE. YOUR WHOLE LIFE IS AHEAD OF YOU AND YOU HAVE BIG PLANS. BIG PLANS. TO FIND YOUR PERFECT MATCH, THE ONE WHO COMPLETES YOU. BUT AS YOU GET OLDER YOU REALIZE IT’S NOT ALWAYS THAT EASY. IT’S NOT UNTIL THE END OF YOUR LIFE THAT YOU REALIZE HOW THE PLANS YOU MADE WERE SIMPLY PLANS. BECAUSE AT THE END WHEN YOU’RE LOOKING BACK INSTEAD OF FORWARD YOU WANT TO BELIEVE YOU MADE THE MOST OF WHAT LIFE GAVE YOU. YOU WANT TO BELIEVE YOU’RE LEAVING SOMETHING GOOD BEHIND. YOU WANT IT ALL TO HAVE MATTERED. (sorry lazy to un-caps this lol)

5. I hate this feeling when I can feel myself and others slowly drifting apart and I’m trying to hold onto everybody but they aren’t holding on to me as tightly. At the same time, other people are reaching out to me and I’m pushing them away so I keep holding on to people who probably aren’t even worth it to begin with.

6. You can't go back & change the past, so look to the future & don't make the same mistake twice.

7. If you focus on what you've left behind, you'll never be able to see what lies ahead.

8. I love that feeling. You know, the one you get when you take a deep breath and suddenly everything feels like it’s going to be okay. When you feel as hopeless as can be and life is going nowhere, there are those moments we have every now and then when we get this feeling that can’t be described, but you get this rush and the world stops spinning for a second and everything is clear and at that moment, you just know. I need more of those moments.

9. Live this day as if it were your last. the past is over and gone. the future is not guaranteed.

10. Sometimes we waste our words and we waste our moments, and we don’t take the time to say the things that are in our hearts when we have the chance.

11. That is all i want in life: for this pain to seem purposeful.

12. "We never know what will happen but I believe good things happen every day. I believe good things happen even when bad things happen. And I believe on a happy day like today, we can still feel a little sad. And that’s life, isn’t it?"

13. The primary cause of unhappiness is never the situation but your thoughts about it.

14. I don't know why we all hang on to something we know we're better off letting go. it's like we're scared to lose what we don't even really have.

15. The only people we can’t forgive are the ones we are still afraid of.

16. Time heals griefs and quarrels, for we change and are no longer the same persons.

17. The sooner you realize things will never be the same again, the sooner you can move on.

What did I even understand as a 13-16 year old to blog/reblog all these?! Now as I read back on these quotes, they speak so much more to me, but all from different experiences and emotions.. especially those in bold.

It's really so timely for me to come across all these. Definitely God's plan again. (Thank God!!)

A reminder for me that I should not look back again, to let go of the past fully and to remember to be happy in all that I do.