03062017, 2355 | M.B.

*moves on to the topic of both our interest in public policy/politics*

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04062017 | M.B.

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I like you.
That was the difficult statement

Oh my god that was so hard to say out

Legit

That's the most difficult thing I've ever said

*shocked* 
Mmm.

What's mmm?

Mmm is mmm.

*checks watch* Okay so I said it tomorrow already

Haha yup

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the most difficult part is not being able to have our phones with us [in camp] 😐

                        haha i actually like not having my phone with me

haha why?

idkkk

i feel tied down with my phone😂

I mean.. for me i guess I'd like to msg you randomly thru the day 😂🙊

😬😬 it's okayy we can talk when y're done :)

I guess sometimes I have little moments when I wish I could share them with you 😬😬😬 but if I don't have my phone I tend to forget about them after that and can't rmb when I'm talking to you 😂😅🙈


God's repeated reminders for me to be thankful of the easily neglected blessings in my life. As mentioned in the earlier posts, I've been feeling really down in the past week. Just a week of questioning, doubting and searching of myself I guess. That made me more emotional and tbh, I wasn't being fully truthful when I said that I wasn't disappointed. I was, just no longer at the point of time when he asked. The disappointment I felt was rid off by the other lovely ones that God blessed me with, and it really enlightened me on why God wanted me to go through that feeling of disappointment.

Despite all that, I am really thankful for him for sticking by despite my roller-coaster emotions this week. Honestly, I wasn't looking to rely on him amidst the busyness. God was constantly my top go-to confider. In those times, He was truly the one who held me and brought me through every single thing. I wasn't joking with him when I said I'm not alone in this, because I was really not alone. I could feel God's constant presence in my life, weaving all the parts together throughout. In my times of need, He came and provided. Even in my good times, He was there to celebrate the joys of my life.

My prayer for myself is to continue this - this reliance on Him and no other. For He is the only One who really sticks by throughout, 24/7, never leaving me, giving me the strength and reason to hold on. Difficult times may come, but God is ever faithful in all seasons.

As for him, the above conversation was the first time I actually opened up to him about my emotions. Tbh, I felt a little afraid to initially. I wasn't sure if I should open up. What if I end up relying on him too much and lose my focus on God? Just felt rather vulnerable to open up to someone again.. but I was thankful that I did so eventually. It's just comforting to know that there's an individual out there who's not only so willing to share about their times of joy and random moments, but also listen and hold on to your tears all at the same time. Once again, I really thank God for you.

The conversation at M.B really caught me off guard though. I was just telling him I'm one who's really bad at giving responses to compliments or things in the similar vein.. which explains my unsatisfactory response lol.

But, there are really too many uncertainties as for now.. and I really don't want things to complicate further so we're just leaving things as that for now. Just thankful for the chill night out once again, catching a movie on your tablet while enjoying the cooling breeze under the star-filled sky with our 18-pc sushi platter lol. (really no idea why there was so many stars in the sky that night lol) Looking back, it has been a very blessed one year with you and although I (or we) have no idea where this may lead to, may we always stay rooted and continue to build on His Kingdom no matter what happens. :-)