Of course, that's glossing over the fact that with ups will come times of down too - all a cycle. but I'm really thankful that throughout all the ups and downs, I've numerous lovely ones who are the reason why I can continue to go on.

Sometimes I get to caught up in my down times that I miss those who are standing by me.. some days I feel too exhausted to hold anymore emotions for anyone or anything.


The very first person I'd really like to thank is my sister. I probably don't express this to her at all, but deep down I always feel very thankful to God for putting her in my life. Without her, I don't know how I'd have gotten through the past 2-3 years. Her ever constant and timely providence in my times of need even when she's feeling worn out herself is something that keeps me going. She's indeed my favourite human being in the world. Words just aren't sufficient to sum up all that she has done for me. Lots of love for you! *cringing*

Second, and probably kinda unexpected, to my brother. Tbh, he hasn't been the brotherly figure I hoped for when I was younger. In fact, he always bullied me and I didn't like him. There were times that I was so angry with him that I want to punch him in the face. Yes, literally. His immaturity despite being the eldest also pissed me off to no end. But in recent years, especially this year, his actions have moved me so much to the point of tears. Knowing his character and what he does for me just makes me go ???? Who is this man in front of me?! From paying my bills, treating me to meals, preparing food for me to bring to school and cooking meals for me... WHO IS THIS PERSON?! Lol. Okay it was rather gradual, but his every action has moved me so much. There was this once when we were at our grandma's and he suddenly called me into a room and told me, "Tell me how much you need okay, I really want you to have the full experience when you're there [at exchange]. I don't want to see you eating bread everyday there too." It came at a very unexpected moment and I wanted to burst out into tears once I heard it.. so I quickly rushed out of the room to my grandma. Thank you korkor. :')

Third, to papa. It's been a tough two years or so..  and seeing how you look so dejected everyday pains me. Yesterday, papa came into my room and showed me this huge blue-black he got from work.. "I don't have staff now so I had to do the moving by myself. And this huge metal block fell right on my feet when I was moving it. 好痛哦.." When I heard that, I really wanted to cry (again lol). Sigh. I may not agree with his mindset at times and some of the things that he did/is doing but it's just so heartwrenching to see him like that? And he's really another person who has been helping me so much throughout this period.. even though it hasn't been easy for him. From ensuring that I'll be filled every morning before class and that I'll get my lunch before rushing off to tuition, to sending me to school and sometimes even bringing me back.. and to bringing me to my favourite coffee shop to have my daily dosage of coffee.. thank you papa.

And mama. The silent supporter, but the one who ensures that I'm always in the pink of health to do the things I have to do. There was this once when I was feeling so unwell (to the point of not able to stand up straight) but I insisted on going for tuition.. because my kid's exam was the following day. She tried so hard to dissuade me and made herbal drinks for me to feel better.. which I finally gave in lol. Thank you mama too. :')

And granny lim. Tbh, I was much closer to grandpa in the past.. but ever since his passing, it made me learn how to cherish granny much much more. She's really so loving every time we head over, and thinks of us so much even when we're not physically with her. Thank you granny for being so supportive in every way that you can. Love you!!!

Opps this is getting too long. There's still a few others.. I shall continue another time haha. Back to my readingsssssssss.