4 Jan 2017 - Happiness as I opened the email knowing that I’ve received an offer from my first choice - ANU. However, with so much more fear overwhelming - how am I supposed to save up in a year? With my current pathetic savings, I need to slog like a cow for the entire 2017 to make this trip possible. Or even, skip a couple of meals.. miss out on social activities. Worse of all, no travels for an entire year! Am I committed enough to do it? 

Consulted many of my closest ones with most of them encouraging me to go for it. Feeling lost is an understatement - I’d say. Obviously knowing that I want this opportunity so badly - but fearing all the above and how my parents (and pocket) would react to it.

2 days on, I accepted the offer - with so much fear. Here it starts, here it goes. Goodbye life. Hello work.

And that was pretty much the routine for 2017. School - work - church - home. Probably also what really drained me so badly through this routine - over and over again.

Here I am, 4 days to my trip. Looking back, it has been crazy. A really crazy roller coaster ride. Was it worth it? I don't know. It's been something that I've always been looking forward to, something that I thought was "natural" for me to go for. Perhaps not really travelling for a year would make me cherish this opportunity much more - to be more thankful for God who paved the route in the very first place and also never failing to provide in my times of need.

Looking forwards to the next couple of months of "newness". I'm expectant for a time of true rest, from the inside out, after the turbulent 2017.