Where would I run

But to the throne of mercy

Where would I kneel

But at this cross of grace

How great the love

How strong the hand that holds us

Beautiful, so beautiful

So here I bow to lift You high

Jesus be glorified

In all things, for all my life

I am Yours, forever Yours

There is a King who bore the scars of healing

There is a Son who came in grace and truth

How great the love that carries us to kindness

Wonderful, You’re wonderful

God here and now, be lifted high

Right here and now, be glorified

God of Heaven and Earth

God who brought me back to life

I am Yours, forever Yours

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Last night, I cried to sleep. 

As I reflected upon Jesus' love for us, it really overwhelmed me and opened the floodgates of my eyes.

Really, who else can ever compare to His great and abounding love for us undeserving people?

No one, really. 

Just no one.

Right before I came for exchange, I was excited, but there was still there fear.

Will it be alright when I'm alone there? What if I fall sick? Mummy will not be able to take care of me. What if I don't make any friends? What if I run out of money to spend? What if I get overwhelmed by the school workload? What if I feel so uncomfortable in the environment and everything does not turn out the way that I wanted it to? 

I tried to "lower" my expectations for exchange - which obviously didn't really work out well. 

During this overwhelming phase of doubt and fear, God spoke, 

"But I'll be with you, right?" 

I have really been too dependent on people in my life that I often forget God's omnipresence. He has always been there for me - why am I still doubting and fearing?! 

From then on, I felt this sense of reassurance to go forth. I'm not alone in this journey, I have Jesus!!!

And indeed, He has proven Himself once again and again - repeatedly during my time here. I'm thankful for this time away from people - for me to remember that, all I need is Jesus in my life. He's the first person I should turn to and the only one I need for all my days.

Thank You Jesus, for the greatest love and sacrifice done on the Cross. For loving such a sinless and undeserving soul like me so much. 

I love You, Jesus. :')