What can I do in such a situation..?
When I feel like no words will help to relieve any pain you're feeling..
It feels very heart-wrenching to be in this position of helplessness, but we all know that you're hurting so much more..
The words we dread to hear, the people we never want to lose.. the questions that flood our heads, "Why them?.. Why not take me away instead?"
Six years ago, I questioned repeatedly when he was taken away from me.
"He left," two simple words that pierced and left me in pieces when I picked up the phone after my exams.
I couldn't believe what I just heard.. I did not know what to do..
I was just.. torn.
I thought I'd never be able to recover from the loss, crying for the entire week and mourning over my loss.. thinking, "what could I have done more?"
But today and now, I have found the answer and peace to those questions.
The scars that I thought would never heal are well stitched back. It hurts occasionally and memories with him still flood back when I relook at them, but they are also a reminder to myself.. to be contented with what I have, the simplest things, to love my loved ones with all I am, to live each day to the fullest.
Above all, trust Him with all the plans He has paved for each and everyone of us.
We may not understand now, but one day, we will.
We may not understand now, but one day, we will.
Stay strong my dearest friend.. these are probably the words I'd never be able to utter to you in real life, but I hope one day when you read this, you've found your answers and peace in your heart.
Always here for you.
Love,
Zx
