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I thought it was going to be difficult, but it didn't turn out to be at all.

I admit, it felt a little hard at the start when I heard of it, but now it's happening, everything is going fine and well.

Can't believe that I actually did something that I thought I myself would never, but now after doing it.. I'm convinced that it's just in my nature from the past until now, that I don't really see the need for it. Since I tried and my stand still remains the same, I shall not attempt to make any changes to that as well lol.

Feeling rather "heartless" even as I type out how I truly feel, but honestly it's just a personal stance on what should be prioritized and what shouldn't be. I'd rather express myself through other means that I think are more meaningful, rather than ways that I don't align to.

Sometimes it's really easy to get absorbed into doing the "norms" and the "shoulds" , so the reminder for myself is to not conform to the patterns of the world, but always seek Him in all the decisions I make and stay true to myself and my beliefs aligned with His Word. :-)

To You, Lord;

Thank You,

For moulding me into an independent soul who still can function even without others, because of my dependence on You.

Because, You reminded me time and time again.

It's ultimately all about You.

Everything I have is Yours and should always revolve around You.

Only this way, things will start going on the right path.

Lord, let Your will be done.

If love endured that ancient cross
How precious is my Saviour’s blood
The beauty of heaven wrapped in my shame 
The image of love upon death’s frame

If having my heart was worth the pain 
What joy could You see beyond the grave 
If love found my soul worth dying for

How wonderful How glorious
My Saviour’s scars Victorious
My chains are gone 
My debt is paid 
From death to life 
And grace to grace

If heaven now owns that vacant tomb
How great is the hope that lives in You
The passion that tore through hell like a rose 
The promise that rolled back death and its stone

If freedom is worth the life You raised 
Oh where is my sin where is my shame 
If love paid it all to have my heart

When I see that cross I see freedom
When I see that grave I’ll see Jesus
And from death to life 
I will sing Your praise 
In the wonder of Your grace

It's suddenly feeling so real.. and I'm not as prepared as I thought I was.

But yeah, God reminded me that He hurt himself while holding on to my heart, and He still is. He finds it worthwhile.. so what's this compared to the great love from God?

rts: Look to Him in all thoughts, word and deed.