It's been quite awhile since I had some time to myself. Been mainly preoccupied with work, and I was so glad when I finally got some time to spend alone. Thought about many things as usual, and perhaps I thought too much about some things I shouldn't have.

I was thinking back about 2014, to see what I can do better as an individual in 2015. I've goals and ambitions that I want to fulfill for the year, but am I getting closer or further away from it? Everything feels so uncertain now, but I will still continue to work hard in my own way, and trust in Him to move forward.

From the day I decided to go to a junior college, the direction of my life changed a lot. I learned that I need to be a mature-thinking young adult. I needed to accept the fact I'll need to sacrifice a lot of things, go through a lot of obstacles, and laugh through it no matter how bad things will get. Till today, I never regretted any of the major decisions I made during that 2 years. Yes, occasionally, I'll think of the "what ifs".. What if I didn't choose the jc path? What if I studied harder when I was younger? What if I didn't let go of some things? How different would my life be right now (then)? But when I get back to reality from the 1001 "what ifs" in my mind, I realised that there were so many reasons why I did so at that point in time. Also, life does not allow room for "what ifs", it's either a this or that. At that point in time, I felt that it was the best decision to make, so I should not regret.

Also, I realised how my perspective of things changed a lot at the end of the year. I used to be so caught up with so many things, till I forgotten to slow down and appreciate the simple joys of life. I really hated how I was like then, and had regrets in this aspect. I really hope I'll learn from the lesson in 2014.

I know He will guide me through this year, by making me into a better person holistically, and also making me stronger both physically and mentally. I just need to work hard in my own ways, trust and walk with Him for the coming year. Hoping for nothing but better things for the year ahead. :-)