Title inspired from the drama I just finished watching but it's pretty apt for what I want to blog about.

Today used to be a special occasion for me. Yes, used to. No longer, and will never be again.

It's been a really hectic 2 weeks at school, but I've no idea why I thought of our memories today again. Maybe it's the drama that I watched that reminded me of the good and bad times we shared. Maybe it's the drama that made me think (just for a split second), "Perhaps? Maybe?"

But I brushed off those thoughts almost instantaneously.

For the past year, I tried really hard to erase everything in my head. It was easier at the start actually, because of the preparation for As. I only had one goal in mind that time and I knew that I had to give up many things just to achieve that 1 goal. I had no time for other thoughts. But after that, when I had more time, it got harder. I wavered many times. In fact, too many for me to keep track. Eventually, I figured that it's impossible to get rid of what we had together. I decided to bring those memories with me as an experience and lesson in my life. That made me felt a little better. I stood firm from then on, with His love, grace and endless reminders, I moved on.

I hope the todays from now on will not be like today. Instead, it will pass like any normal day. (Maybe I should just stop watching dramas lolz)

Despite all this said, I'm thankful for what we had together. I hope with this (almost) one year mark, it will really be the end.