"What's the hardest decision you ever made in your life?"
Thoughts of choosing schools after national exams came to my mind when I was asked this for the very first time.
The second time I was asked this.. a totally different answer came to my mind.
"The decision to end certain relationships," I answered.
This included all forms of relationships (i.e friendships) that I have given up on, but of course the hardest decision out of all was that particular one. Think I've also shared that I struggled to do so in one of my older posts.. but I just don't know why this two days had just got me thinking about it again.
Maybe it was this song or the people that I chanced upon that got me thinking about the past. Before this, I really thought I had moved on completely.. but this two days made me realize that I was just burying it and hiding it deep down. It really got me looking back at the scars left and thinking what went wrong.. and I saw the darkness in my soul and heart then.
But thank God for the timely intervention and putting the light in my life, showing me the direction that I should and need to pursue.
Things are really just so different now now that I really can't imagine how different it would be if that decision wasn't made then.
Would I be who I am right now?
One thing I'm sure of is that.. I never regretted that decision.. especially seeing how you're doing much better now. :)
This really just goes to show how He is really in control of it all. As long as we're willing to trust and obey, everything will fall back to its rightful place.