Where would I run
But to the throne of mercy
Where would I kneel
But at this cross of grace
How great the love
How strong the hand that holds us
Beautiful, so beautiful
So here I bow to lift You high
Jesus be glorified
In all things, for all my life
I am Yours, forever Yours
There is a King who bore the scars of healing
There is a Son who came in grace and truth
How great the love that carries us to kindness
Wonderful, You’re wonderful
God here and now, be lifted high
Right here and now, be glorified
God of Heaven and Earth
God who brought me back to life
I am Yours, forever Yours
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Last night, I cried to sleep.
As I reflected upon Jesus' love for us, it really overwhelmed me and opened the floodgates of my eyes.
Really, who else can ever compare to His great and abounding love for us undeserving people?
No one, really.
Just no one.
Right before I came for exchange, I was excited, but there was still there fear.
Will it be alright when I'm alone there? What if I fall sick? Mummy will not be able to take care of me. What if I don't make any friends? What if I run out of money to spend? What if I get overwhelmed by the school workload? What if I feel so uncomfortable in the environment and everything does not turn out the way that I wanted it to?
I tried to "lower" my expectations for exchange - which obviously didn't really work out well.
During this overwhelming phase of doubt and fear, God spoke,
"But I'll be with you, right?"
I have really been too dependent on people in my life that I often forget God's omnipresence. He has always been there for me - why am I still doubting and fearing?!
From then on, I felt this sense of reassurance to go forth. I'm not alone in this journey, I have Jesus!!!
And indeed, He has proven Himself once again and again - repeatedly during my time here. I'm thankful for this time away from people - for me to remember that, all I need is Jesus in my life. He's the first person I should turn to and the only one I need for all my days.
Thank You Jesus, for the greatest love and sacrifice done on the Cross. For loving such a sinless and undeserving soul like me so much.
I love You, Jesus. :')