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Another year older but I don't feel wiser sobs.

Anyway here's how my 19th birthday went!




First celebration was with TSML at Udders! We wanted to try it after our treetop walk previously but they ran out of mains then. A pretty good meal. The fries were so good! It was a rather huge serving though.


Very thankful to have them in my life since 2009! Our 7th year, and hoping for many more years ahead. Thanks for celebrating my birthday every year without fail and making this day feel extra special. Really appreciate the effort put in every year! :-)


Second one was with Bernice and Denise! Was super shocked for this because I didn't expect them to come all the way to my house to surprise me. So touched!!! Thanks for coming specially just to celebrate my birthday! :')





Went to Lady M after that for desserts! Had to queue for quite awhile before we got our seats.


The signature cake. (I forgot the name lolol)

Title inspired from the drama I just finished watching but it's pretty apt for what I want to blog about.

Today used to be a special occasion for me. Yes, used to. No longer, and will never be again.

It's been a really hectic 2 weeks at school, but I've no idea why I thought of our memories today again. Maybe it's the drama that I watched that reminded me of the good and bad times we shared. Maybe it's the drama that made me think (just for a split second), "Perhaps? Maybe?"

But I brushed off those thoughts almost instantaneously.

For the past year, I tried really hard to erase everything in my head. It was easier at the start actually, because of the preparation for As. I only had one goal in mind that time and I knew that I had to give up many things just to achieve that 1 goal. I had no time for other thoughts. But after that, when I had more time, it got harder. I wavered many times. In fact, too many for me to keep track. Eventually, I figured that it's impossible to get rid of what we had together. I decided to bring those memories with me as an experience and lesson in my life. That made me felt a little better. I stood firm from then on, with His love, grace and endless reminders, I moved on.

I hope the todays from now on will not be like today. Instead, it will pass like any normal day. (Maybe I should just stop watching dramas lolz)

Despite all this said, I'm thankful for what we had together. I hope with this (almost) one year mark, it will really be the end.